Pancakes(are simple to make)

Friday,feb,06 2009

I made myself pancakes today,it's actually for breakfast,but i woke up a little(too)late.so i've skipped brealfast and ate the pancakes together with Angga and Jansen for lunch.i don't have any recipe for pancake and was too lazy to search on internet,i meant how hard is it to make a pancake??pancake is simple...pancake is simple...it's the simpliest cake on earth...it's simple...

I've said those words like hundret times,i took self-rising flour,eggs,cocoa powder,baking powder,sugar,milk,salt,vanilli powder,and gathered them all around.i have made two kind of batters,the original-and the cocoa one.i whisked and whisked untill all ingredients were blended with each other,the batter was smooth and thin,mean while i've buttered the pan(better use the nonstick one)then i've poured in the batter to the pan and made a small puddle of batter,i've cooked it like 2-3 minutes in each side,then flipped it,i've made about 12 pancakes,and then i've served it on the plate with a confectionary sugars and blueberry jam on the top.see,it's so dead-simple to make!!!

I for Insomnia

SATURDAY,FEB,07 2009


My long sleepless night became a nightmare,i just can't stand that.at first it was just a change of my biological time,i didn't slep at night,and slept while other people went tp work.it was fun until i found my self wasn't sleep at all.then i relaized in this three weeks,i had just 2-3 hours of sleep each day and this is what i called nothing but disaster,not to mention after efect:Dark circles under my eye,which obviously caused due to my distrubed sleep.i lost my weight about 2 kilos and amazingly don't feel happy about that.i dont know why i can't sleep??but i know this is on the one hand no good and very unhealthy!!!!
But on other hand,it really helped me out during my working time.i could concentrate and focus on my work bcoz there's not much noise at dawn.but still,it shoudn't be this way,a friend of mine asked me to take sleeping pills,but i don't think it's a good idea.sleeping pills is aren;t solution,my other friend told me to see the doctor or psychiatrist,but i dont think it's necessary either,so here i am,sitting on the bedside and still(counting sheeps kumping ober clouds)looking for the rigt solution to my insomania...
Wish me luck.give me back my sleep,i really need that A.S.A.P!!!!

Children learn what they live

If a child lives with criticism,they will learns to condemn
If a child lives with hostility,they will learns to fight
If a child lives with ridicules,they will learns to be shy
If a child lives with shame,they will learns to feel guilty
If a child lives with tolerance,they will to be patient
If a child lives encouragement,they will learns to be confident
If a child lives with praise,they will learns to appreciate
If a child lives with fairness,they will learns justice
If a child lives with security,he will learns to have faith
If a child lives with approval,they will learns to like himself
IF A CHILD LIVES WITH ACCEPTANCE AND FRIENDSHIP,THEY WILL LEARNS TO FIND LOVE IN THE WORLD.

The key to your heart

You are attracted to those who have split personality-cold as ice on the
outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love,you feel the most a live when your lover is creative and never lets
you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless,cold-blooded
and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is comforting,you crave a relationship where you
always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero,you care about society and morality.you
would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious,you'll treasure marriage and
treat it as secret.
In this moment you think of love as something you thirst for,you'll do
anything for love,but you won't fall for it easly.

Just shut up

Sometimes and somewhere i just dont know what to say and mistakenly saying something that shouldn't be said.
I was about to buya take-away whole roast Oporto's chicken of dinner with friends at home.
Me:''can i have whole roast chicken pls??''
Oporoto's staff:Okay,which sauce would you like?(the staff is a young man)
Me:''Mild please''
Oporto's staff:''err......eat here or take away''
Me:....(really can't say anything for a second thinking if anyone is crazy enough to finish a whole big chicken in one go)...take away please...''

Closure

It's been a long time,however i just want to write a thing that keep bugging my mind.how come when i ask the one up there for a closure or to defend me,he does nothing???truth that will open both of my superiors eyes that i'm not lying or did i pressured the girl.
What i want is the one who is up there help me,defend me or get a closure about this problem,i don't like being deceived like this,he done nothing and soon the girl will gone and left the big problem inside,i really need a closure and someone like a lawyer to defend me,can he become a lawyer and defend me??
The time is clickingand so far there is nothing been done,maybe i'm wrong to turned to god to help me??where is the parh??i'm getting lost of hope in here,dont know he really notice it??

Ecstasy

I have a friend who was recently tried ectasy.i was surprised when he told me,becoz as far i have known,he is a guy who always live to the fullest and clean guy(not a smoker.doesn't like medicines and he always maintain his fresh clean face and style),he is like a kid from next door.

After his first use of the ectasy,he told me that he learned and asked experienced people who are using it regulary before decided to try it.he asked his friend to find a high quality one and look after him when he was on drug.Afterwards,he told me his experience,ecstacy does work but it will need around i hour to reach the''high''

At this point,the user will feel a very high energy coming and feel so high and happy then started to shake the feet to release the coming and coming abundant of energy,this is when he started feel like to dance.

He also told me that when he feel high,he can think,yes..think very clear and feel so active with many ideas and he could remember everything that was happening around,i guess maybe that why many talented people(singer,painter,actorand actress,etc)who feel that there is no more ideas or feel that when they get bollocks,they turned to drugs like ecstasy(when they feel so much despair)

Then after some hours on high,like other drug when it wear out,the users will feel so down,suddenly they will feel so empty and there is as very strong emotion which make them feel in a bigger despair that they never feel before.

This stage is the dangerous stage where usually feeling like not wanted,suicide or so low from anyone will be so great,i guess this is why some users can not overcome this down feeling and choose to eat ectasy again to get the high feeling.

Some users did dead bcoz they didn't want to feel the''down time''they wanted the''high feeling''more while forgetting that they would eventually overdose and kill themselves.

As my friend alreadt been told to think only happiness and ignore the down feeling,he tried hard to keep himself happy during this period,hours after using the ectasy??he said that he feel so sick for around 2-3 days.he got headache and aching everywhere in parts of his body.

eskimo restaurant

It was 11th january 2009,my days while i fell a bit broken heart coz of''rock''after i crying and tell the story to my best friend''calvin''after working all day,he arrived at macau on saturday evening,he find a places to staying offer night for hin self,after he took some rest and shower he call me and we meet at lobby then we going out for more product knowledge then it was time for dinner!!!
Eskimo restaurant offers monthly seasonal changes to the menu and gourmet ingredients from local macau produces.as i reading the menu,we had no idea where we should start.as it is a rare occasion,my colleagues determined to have most ordering different main meals.
Our entree is bella's pruners plate:
The bread was not too dried which i like,i love the rabbit terrine,mango chutney and duck pate.in fact my colleagues scraped these until the other plates were clean while leaving the mustard and cheese.

Consist of yarra valley rabbit terrine with strawberry jam on top,farm house cheese,duck pate(top right),mango chutney salsa(below left),and garlic aioli(top left)with biscotti bread.


Next is calvin's choice of main meal:
He's said that the barramundi is absolute delicious and he liked it cook well done(he's request)
Grilled barramundi,garlic prawn brochette,baby peas,spring onions and confit lemon.
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The baby chicken was tender and soft,it seem just ordinary roast chicken,my friend calvin said that it was not a special dish.
Nest is Calvin's order:
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Boned&roasted baby chicken,truffle foie,pearls onions,creamed celeriac in natural juice,
The veal was tender and everything was the right flavour,the only thing i didn't like is the fried chicken accompanying this dish,it seem not a match,i could easily separated the bacon from the rest of the dish,the mascarpone was melted a bit while we were talking picture each other's dish,i would suggest that the mascarpone should not be salted as it only highlight the salted veal,love the mushroom,seem it was soaked with jus prior cooking and it was juicy.
Mine is:
Noisetters of veal,braised savoy vegetable,salt&pepper mascarpone,mushroom&jus.
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It's classic,but we loved the warm gooey dark chocolate in the centre while it
was cold outside in the macau city,the ice cream was loaded with vanilla bean and it was delicious after your spoon the gooey warm chocolate.as both of us are almost full,we could bot finish the souffle.it was bigger than usual and we loved the intense flavour,next time i will definitely save more place in my tummy for the souffle.
We did have breakfast at eskimo restaurant,i love the breakfast as were provided with fresh fruit like banana with passion fruit instead banana chips at most restaurant do.also,i noticed that the honey was in standing glass container with some pieces of honeycombs.
Both of us loved the dessert:
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Hot chocolate souffle with ice cream vanilla

Maryamah karpov

I just finish Andrea hirata ;ast tetra logy,MARYAMAH KARPOV.well..congratulation to Andrea,i know what most reader said about this book is not true,i've prove it.olie,the genre is not about biographical anymore,because of many hyperbolic thing in it.but this is literature,and everything could happend in it,and literature can be fake as well as real depend on how we interpret it.

I still like your story,and still amaze how can a son can describe his love to his father this great,and how come a man can be in love with someone so deeply and doing many crazy thing to find her again such as being backpacker around Europe and building ship,just only to see her again,just because of a glimpse of her finger.remind me to do meni pedi more often hihihihi.....

One question,why the title is maryamah karpov???Because the story is not about Maryamah karpov,okay...Andrea did not mention her name a bit,and other names and why there are many jokes about someone names in melayu,reminds me of old times school,when we used to call someone from his father names hehehe....

Reading Maryamah,makes me wonder why Andrea is so proud being Melayu,Melayu people is very imaginative and sometimes very good liar....no offense yah...but so as this story.

How genius is lintang,to make accurate calculation in building a ship.and how to explode a sinking ship,i just cant take my breath while reading it!!!if there is a person as genius as lintang,sure i'd like to know one.i like the story about friendship and how we supposed to help each other no matter what...co cuitt...hihihihi...and i like ending of arai and his true love,and i like ending of mahar,eventually found his love,and i like ending of lintang become entrepreneur and rich,so worth with his genius brain,and i like it,because in the end ical has to choose between his greatest love of his father with his greatest love of woman.

I know i'll cry

Dear:Rock

I gave you my trust,i let you my held my hand,i've tasted your sweet kiss i let my self fall though i know i'll cry.i saw heaven in the earth.i walked over the rainbow when i touched you and held your hand i felt the shiver through my heart,cant help it,though i know i'll cry.
I felt safe when i'm in your arms,i saw my way when i looked into your eyes seems i saw the light to my darkest path you've touched my life and i let my self fall though i know i'll cry.i know i care of you maybe this is love i truely felt for you,i let you in my life,i trusted it in your hand i'm lost,but i'am happy this way though i know i'll cry.

MY DAYS

I was downloading that beautiful song''I CRY''(my fav song at the minute)to my mobile/cell phone yesterday to use as my ringtone(mellow songs and bit sad songs just like what i fell in this time)anyway after it finished downloading it said something about being in the wrong format so i went into my settings fiddled about a bit(i love a good fiddle)then it told me to enter my sim pin number wich i did then it told me to eneter new sim pin number and i was like.
So i made up a new one confirmed it(this happened three times)and it kept telling me''CODE INVALID''then guess what???they only blocked my phone and sim card i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO apparently they do this after three failed attempts to enter your code...so i got on line faster than a hoor in heat..(no wise cracks please)and emailed my mobile phone network to see what i could do..got an''auto replay''email saying they would contact me within 24 hrs...still waiting..i mean how can i live without my mobile??????it's impossible.
Reading online if the sim card is truly f**ked they will send me another one and u can keep the same number,will get my credit back but will lose all my contact numbers,pics,videos and messages,then again maybe loosing a few number might be a good idea saying nothing...so to anyone who has texted me since last night thats the reason why i havent replied...sorry to all.!!!

My Inside Thoughts...

Friday,23,january,2009



For the past several days.i have been rough feelings inside my self,i dont know what was and still going on in my life nowadays,but it seems that nothing works the way it supposed to be.if i review everything for the day that ready happend in my live between me and rock on 13 january,nothing has been easy on me,i feel like everything that i'm doing or everything around me is just DRAINING ALL OF THE ENERGY I HAVE(or even the energy i'am trying to have)I'M ANNOYED FEEL VERY ANNOYED AND WORRIED.i try my best to give him what he want but he do really make me hurt and down,i panicked and from that time on,i cant handle my frustation that i have been trying to deal within my self...
Probably it is not really about that problem only that really make me feel down,since i still can be loyal and patience to him i will do.it is abou t FRUSTATION that is inside of me ,and all i can do is BRUST IN TO TEARS,well prefer to cry rather than yelling oud loud,making all the people in the coridor worder what is happend to me.
I wanted to cry but i never cried until i talked about what happened to my father and my friend yesterday.i guessed it was just the right time for me to let go the frustation.part of me does still feel I'M SO CHILDISH to do what i did yesterday,CRYING.however part of me says it is THE RIGHT THING AND AN OKAY THING to do,it is a RELIEVE??
Today i feel lighter and comfortable with whatever has happened,starting to accept and disgest all the lessons behind it.it is like i can cope now that there will be a solution to it.
it is amazing that my father and my chilhood friend actually could feel that i was crying yesterday without me telling her that i was crying.THEY FEEL LIKE WHAT I FEEL...that is how brilliant a father and trusted friend can be...i wonder WILL BE ABLE TO DO THE SAME THINGS WHEN THEY FEEL LIKE ME.

MY BROKEN HEART

wednesday.08.january 2009


I HAD LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART,
AND GIVE UP EVERYTHING FOR YOU,
THINGKING THAT YOU ARE WORTHY OF MY LOVE,
THINKING THAT YOU WILL BE TRUE...

I HAVE TRUSTED YOU A LOT AND BROKE
MY TRUST SO MANY TIMES...
WHY DO YOU ALWAYS BREAKS MY HEARTS??
WHY ARE YOU KILLING ME INSIDE??

WHY DO I LOVED YOU???
I ASK THIS QUESTION A MILLION TIMES,
WHY DID WE MEET EACH OTHER?
WHEN U WILL ONLY BREAK MY HEART ONLY?
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE ALL YHESE HARDSHIPS IN LIFE?
WHY OH WHY IT'S TEARING ME APART.

THERE ARE TIMES THAT I WANTED TO GIVE UP
BECAUSE IT'S DRAINING MY STRENGTH
MAKING ME WEAK IN AND OUT
WANTING TO VANISH WITH THE AIR,
OH MY GOD HOW WILL I EVER SURVIVE??

WHY DO YOU LIE ALL THE TIME?
EVEN IF I HAVE ALL THE PROOFS,THAT COULD NAIL YOU DOWN.
MAKING THINGS WORST AS THEY ALREADY ARE.
WHY CAN'T YOU ADMIT THAT YOU MADE A MISTAKE
INSTEAD OF DENYING IT THAT ONLY MAKES ME CRY.

DO YOU REALLY LOVE ME??
DID YOU EVER TRY??
HOW TRUE IS YOUR LOVE FOR ME,PLEASE TELL ME NOW??
MY BROKEN HEART WILL HEAL I KNOW
DO I HAVE TO LIVE WITH FEAR THAT YOU WILL LEAVE ME
ONE DAY,BECAUSE YOU FOUND A NEW LOVE?THAT WILL LEAVE ME BEHIND

DO YOU WANT ME TO FIGHT FOR MY LOVE??
OR WOULD YOU RATHER LET ME GO OF YOU
TO LESSEN THE MISERIES I HAD.
WOULD IT MAKE YOU HAPPY IF I'LL LET YOU GO?
THOUGH IT WOULD HURT ME SO MUCH
TELL ME WHAT TO DO,PLS HELP ME OUT...

MY BROKEN HEART WILL HEAL I KNOW
IT WILL TAKE SOMETIME BUT IT WILL GO,
IT WILL LEAVE A SCAR,THAT WILL REMIND ME OF YOU
BUT MY FORGIVENESS IS THERE AND THAT BECAUSE
I LOVE YOU......

FUN SUNDAY

DESPITE OF THE FACT THAT I WAS IN PAIN OF HAVING BAD HEADEACH IN THIS FEW DAYS,I HAD A GREAT SUNDAY WITH MY FRIEND,WE GOT THIS FABULOUS 2FOR1 VOUCHER FROM''PIZZA EXPRESS''WHICH WE NORMALLY WILL NOT GO BECAUSE OF THE PRICE,WE HAD A LONG WALK FROM HOME TO THE RESTAURANT,WITCH IS BY THE DOCK.
WE ORDERED A''ARRANCINI''AS AN APPETIZER,WHICH IS RISOTTO AND CHICKEN HAM COVERED AND FRIED WITH BREAD CRUMBS,AS OUR MAIN,I HAD DIAVOLO CLASSIC PIZZA,DEVILISHY HOT WITH SPICY BEEF,PEPERONI,ONIONS AND TABASCO,WITH HOT GREEN OR JALAPENO PEPPERS,AND OTHERS I HAD POLLO VERDURE SALAD,A WARM FEAST OF TORN CHICKEN BREAST AND CHARGRILLED ITALIAN VEGETABLES TOSSED WITH HONEY AND MUSTARD DRESSING,SERVED ON ROCKET AND BABY SPINACH AND DRIZZLED WITH BALSAMIC SYRUP,THEY BOTH WERE VERY YUMMY,ESPACIALLY MY SALAD...UUUGGGHHHH I;D LOVE TO HAVE ANOTHER ONE HEHEHEHE,,,,TIRAMISU WAS OUR DESSERT,WOOOOOOOO,,,,SO DELICIOUSLY MELTING-IN-MOUTH SENSATION.

AFTER OUR SUPER DUPER DELICIOUS LATE LUNCH,WE WENT TO CINEMA AND WATCHED MADAGASCAR 2,I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IT HILLARIOUSLY FUNNY.WELL,THAT'S OUR SUNDAY,HOW WAS YOUR SUNDAY???

TURN A NEW LEAF

Thursday,january 01.2009

It's all been the second hour of the new year 2009,i'm still awake here in the lonely night only with my friend(CALVIN)i speand,but not making me much totally happy huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,i really miss my love there(hongkong city)what he do there.with whome,and where he going to celebrate this new year???many question in my mind abt that.

Well,shall i talk abt my new year's eve first??i had lunch at japanese restaurant,where i almost exploded my stomach with the free chrisantemum tea,after that we go to watch the movie''AUSTRALIA''is very good movie''(i crying while i both the ticket for me and calvin.i remember that time when me and rock was delaying to watch the movie bcoz of my mistake)the story is so true,deep and touchy,all the stars playet well,the quality of the movie is indeed fantastic,its as if was watching a set of living photographs,breath-taking scenes of the movie is indeed fantastic,it's as if was watching a actors and actresses!!!it is a must see movie.

Enough of the new year's eve thing.....
2008 was year full of lessons for me,lessons to be a good lovers,we faught here and there,thanks god,those times teach us to understand deeperabout each other.Each day of my life brings me to greater appreciation of having''ROCK''in my life,i truly thank the lord for such a wonderfully caring and loving lovers i have(maybe even not totally)We learn to support each other and together we knit our stories,build our relationship more strongger,and expeRience our journey happiness.
Just several minutes ago,i was enjoying the view of beautiful fireworks outside my window.yeah...this week each year,they have a fireworks show on friday or saturday*they call it born-fire night.I'm always amazed by the colourful view the fireworks given in a dark sky of the night,this experience can only be enjoyed by the bare-eyes and often can be express through picture/photos.seeing it straight away gives a different and better feeling abt it.
it is a pity though...fireworks only last a few second and they are gone by then,otherwise,wouldn't it be a beautiful decoration on the night skies??

About Me

It again for the second times as a request from such a warm''GREAT''friend''Calvin''let me start...
ANOTHER 10 THINGS ABOUT ME''HANY''
1) She is very PERFECTIONIST person,who would stress herself out(and sometimes to the measure of depression)to do things as perfect as she wants.
2) Be who she is,say exacly what her mind and heart say and won't even act nice if her heart is disliking something,Too STRAIGHT FORWARD??maybe....
3) She enjoys cross-stitching,knitting,scrapbooking and sometimes sketching random things,after sometime of not knitting,i will soon start knitting a pair of mitten for my love,i hope it will work out well.
4) She dreams of having twins!!!Tee-hee...
5) She has super sensitive nose that even my friend always think and said that''hany''was a doggy in the previos life''bite rock''hahahahah...
6) People's first impression of her''RUDE,AROGANT,QUIET AND JUDES''(mungkin krn modelku garang x yeeeeeeeee)The impression after:talkactive and such a crazy gal!!!
7) She is super quiet when she is angry and always puts such a face that friend around and maybr also rock really hates(i'm working hard on reducing my temper)
8) She loves cyicling,but hates other sports,that reminds me of old time when i always compete with my BFF for fun.
9) She is not morning person.
10) She has no regrets,anything i do,i do it with pleasure,even there might be some not so good time in between.in my life,i have no regrets and will never have,i cherish everything that happends in my life,anyone that comes into my life and all that has been given into me,for i believe nothing good will come out of regret)
Cal..thanks once again for such a prise and the prayer*hugs*
ps.Anyone would like to this???you are most wellcome to do so....

Making Him Smile...!!!

wed,29 oct 2008
It's been a while since i planed to buy him new LAPTOP for his birthday gift,yeah actually i have ready both laptop for him few month ago,but after seen other model new arriaval with ame brand he wanted too.i have been surveying on prices of different stores,voila...yesterday we found a great price in one of the store in electric shop.got 30% discount of the normal price plus 150 cashback from HP laptop.thus the cheapest price i found...!!!
And i made him smile so wide and brighly..oh god..i love to make him smile.
ps:so now he has a new LAPTOP and been busy with it..!!!

Life goes on

Firstly i'd like to thank everyone who has tried to cheer me up and brighten my feeling,the disappointed lingered of my self for days in me.it strucked me even deeper when my parents asked about it(i knew they would anywy...)but they know there is nothing can be done to change my marks,the most i can do and should do is to do my best in my own life,i shall not stop.Today during my prayer time my aunt call me and sk how was in hk.i did said can u call me after my prayer time?then she ask me wether there is anything i need to be prayed on?The first word that came out from my mouth ws''confident'',i needed it so bad that i was not sure whether i can pass my bachelor with good degree as my aunt was talking.after i cut off the phone i could not help but cried i felt relatived as if all burden in my heart has been lifted up by allah.I haven't cried so much on my own lately..usually i cry to him on my own when there is a matter or two,maybe i kept it inside my self this time and it sure was painful.After i finish praying i felt much better,i felt my heart was light and i'am stronger and confident.now i can say to my self''i'am able to go through this''do my best and get a good degree.i feel great smile on my face.
As i call my chilhood friend who always praying for me was smiling at me giving me a sense and happiness''nothing wasted''he's said.it open my mind the lord let me to go through all of these things for purpose.even if it is painful in this present time and may seem useless at all to the future.it is great feeling to know that all of these thing,all of these lesson and knowledge won't be wasted,the time will come when i will using what i have learned now,i'm happy now......

I feeling so upsed

Today i'm feeling so upsed..yeah while my friend call me this morning i wanted to cry and scream loudly,so let whole world knowing what kind of things that can making me feel so upsed.

My friend had telling me about her birthday,i feel so jelous with that but what kind i do?she had an surprise from her bf and also sweet greating from the fone,card,and sms.she did recieve in the midlle of the night at 12pm.oh..my god that sooooo sweet and why i can't hide my tears from my eyes when i hear she talk about this this morning?i imagine if someone i love doing the same for me on my birthday last month!!!but tha only a dream from me,coz on that time my bf didn't say anything for me,and he didn't text me something sweet on that time.he did say forget while i remind him on his birthday.my heart was crying how could he's forget my birthday?did he really love me?why did he forget on my birthday?and why did he can remember other people birthday?i wish i could have a wonderful story like my friend.but when and whom going to give me any surprise??why i can't stop my tears while i remember this story?

No matter about him did he really forget or what i don't even know the reason,maybe i'm not so special for him like other yeah maybe.anyway i also had a great birthday(even though i still feel that it is not complete yet,since someone forgoten my birthday)i did remember always that happend,it's so wonderful for my life even my heart crying alot,yeah that time i was going to my friend's place to fix her computer,i was actually being set up for her.(i didn't know they planned a surprise little party for me)it seen really crazy that time my heart feel like out from my chest when i knock the door and start go in her house they said''SURPRISEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!''luckly my heart ws so strong inside there.my tears roll down from my eyes,how could other people remember my birthday and someone i love had forgoten about that?huh.....

It was very nice,there were nine of us including me,four other indonesians and four of them from deferent parts of the world.they cooked me delicious meals like:laksa,chicken rice,fried chicken,sushi,and veg eeeemmm yummy...!!!they sang me''HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG''and gave me a chocolate birthday cake.that was the second surprise''while i was went to toilet and when i was walking back to the living room it was so quiet,i didn't know what is going on again.then i went in there the room was dark,and they sang and i saw a cake with candle there...i'm so surprise with that i begin to cry in happiness.they gave me a sweet greeting and present too ooohhh i really feel a,amazed when i remember that time.
Yeah i can't forget that memory in 26-june-2008 is so wonderful story of my life that i never had before.yeah...anyway one of them are had indonesia boy.so we all really having fun that time.after dinner let the games begins...yeah..we'll playing game together,first game we'll play''scirsos,paper,stone''i need to fight 8 person that time,if one of us loose we need to eat one sushi yeeee...that was the starter crazy i'm so full and can't take ot anymore,then after half of the game we'll agree to change the sushi to water,oh my god we'll keep on playimg and playing any other games,and i do lost 14 times heheheh..so i had 11 big cups of water.

they all really play me on that time.i feel so tired,and sleepy.but my friend don't let me go to sleep even a while only uuuggghhh my eyes soooo heavy and very hard to opened,but they keep saying u can't go to sleep coz ur the birthday girl,oh my god...!!!

But finally they all feel pity with me after they seen my eyes can't opened anymore,they let me go to sleep and took some rest..yeah ur so good friend heheehe....i slept on her bed for while(thanks dear)and ended up i wanted to going home coz i could not slept well there.then while i'm home ready in early morning around 4 and 5 aclock i recieve many sms greating from my friend,but there no any sms i recieve from someone ilove,and so i begin to crying at that time.messege from my chilhood friend:

''where did you having little party yesterday''

''what kind of surprise party from yr from and other?''

''what did u eat for dinner?u did keep drinking water 11 big cups right?coz u did lost playing a game''oooooopppssss...how did he know???

''big question sign inside my head''how did he know what was i get and did that night''

''at that point i was a bit worried that he might reach negatively thinking..oohhh nooo''

But still feel my stomach is funny on next morning.i don't feel like eating,but my head get headech coz not enough sleept on that time,anyway it was a nice and sweet birthday surprise for me,from inside my heart i said thank you for everyone who said''happy birthday''to me,for my''chilhood friend'' that ready send me care enough to send a b'day card,sms,and gave me a call and say sweet greating first time than other.for my friend''Calvin''that gave me big mickey mouse doll,for my friend''Deandra''that gave me''mobile phone''for my birth present.for my friend''Tari''that gave me silver pendent that has my birthday sign.for my friend''Alin''that gave me''My favorite movie disc''for my mum and dad and also my bro that sending me something special heheh...and also big thanks from my deep heart for al my other friend who has big care for me by sending sms and sweet greeting,thank you so..so..muchhhhhhh.anyway now i'm 23 years old.....