I know i'll cry

Dear:Rock

I gave you my trust,i let you my held my hand,i've tasted your sweet kiss i let my self fall though i know i'll cry.i saw heaven in the earth.i walked over the rainbow when i touched you and held your hand i felt the shiver through my heart,cant help it,though i know i'll cry.
I felt safe when i'm in your arms,i saw my way when i looked into your eyes seems i saw the light to my darkest path you've touched my life and i let my self fall though i know i'll cry.i know i care of you maybe this is love i truely felt for you,i let you in my life,i trusted it in your hand i'm lost,but i'am happy this way though i know i'll cry.

MY DAYS

I was downloading that beautiful song''I CRY''(my fav song at the minute)to my mobile/cell phone yesterday to use as my ringtone(mellow songs and bit sad songs just like what i fell in this time)anyway after it finished downloading it said something about being in the wrong format so i went into my settings fiddled about a bit(i love a good fiddle)then it told me to enter my sim pin number wich i did then it told me to eneter new sim pin number and i was like.
So i made up a new one confirmed it(this happened three times)and it kept telling me''CODE INVALID''then guess what???they only blocked my phone and sim card i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO apparently they do this after three failed attempts to enter your code...so i got on line faster than a hoor in heat..(no wise cracks please)and emailed my mobile phone network to see what i could do..got an''auto replay''email saying they would contact me within 24 hrs...still waiting..i mean how can i live without my mobile??????it's impossible.
Reading online if the sim card is truly f**ked they will send me another one and u can keep the same number,will get my credit back but will lose all my contact numbers,pics,videos and messages,then again maybe loosing a few number might be a good idea saying nothing...so to anyone who has texted me since last night thats the reason why i havent replied...sorry to all.!!!

My Inside Thoughts...

Friday,23,january,2009



For the past several days.i have been rough feelings inside my self,i dont know what was and still going on in my life nowadays,but it seems that nothing works the way it supposed to be.if i review everything for the day that ready happend in my live between me and rock on 13 january,nothing has been easy on me,i feel like everything that i'm doing or everything around me is just DRAINING ALL OF THE ENERGY I HAVE(or even the energy i'am trying to have)I'M ANNOYED FEEL VERY ANNOYED AND WORRIED.i try my best to give him what he want but he do really make me hurt and down,i panicked and from that time on,i cant handle my frustation that i have been trying to deal within my self...
Probably it is not really about that problem only that really make me feel down,since i still can be loyal and patience to him i will do.it is abou t FRUSTATION that is inside of me ,and all i can do is BRUST IN TO TEARS,well prefer to cry rather than yelling oud loud,making all the people in the coridor worder what is happend to me.
I wanted to cry but i never cried until i talked about what happened to my father and my friend yesterday.i guessed it was just the right time for me to let go the frustation.part of me does still feel I'M SO CHILDISH to do what i did yesterday,CRYING.however part of me says it is THE RIGHT THING AND AN OKAY THING to do,it is a RELIEVE??
Today i feel lighter and comfortable with whatever has happened,starting to accept and disgest all the lessons behind it.it is like i can cope now that there will be a solution to it.
it is amazing that my father and my chilhood friend actually could feel that i was crying yesterday without me telling her that i was crying.THEY FEEL LIKE WHAT I FEEL...that is how brilliant a father and trusted friend can be...i wonder WILL BE ABLE TO DO THE SAME THINGS WHEN THEY FEEL LIKE ME.

MY BROKEN HEART

wednesday.08.january 2009


I HAD LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART,
AND GIVE UP EVERYTHING FOR YOU,
THINGKING THAT YOU ARE WORTHY OF MY LOVE,
THINKING THAT YOU WILL BE TRUE...

I HAVE TRUSTED YOU A LOT AND BROKE
MY TRUST SO MANY TIMES...
WHY DO YOU ALWAYS BREAKS MY HEARTS??
WHY ARE YOU KILLING ME INSIDE??

WHY DO I LOVED YOU???
I ASK THIS QUESTION A MILLION TIMES,
WHY DID WE MEET EACH OTHER?
WHEN U WILL ONLY BREAK MY HEART ONLY?
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE ALL YHESE HARDSHIPS IN LIFE?
WHY OH WHY IT'S TEARING ME APART.

THERE ARE TIMES THAT I WANTED TO GIVE UP
BECAUSE IT'S DRAINING MY STRENGTH
MAKING ME WEAK IN AND OUT
WANTING TO VANISH WITH THE AIR,
OH MY GOD HOW WILL I EVER SURVIVE??

WHY DO YOU LIE ALL THE TIME?
EVEN IF I HAVE ALL THE PROOFS,THAT COULD NAIL YOU DOWN.
MAKING THINGS WORST AS THEY ALREADY ARE.
WHY CAN'T YOU ADMIT THAT YOU MADE A MISTAKE
INSTEAD OF DENYING IT THAT ONLY MAKES ME CRY.

DO YOU REALLY LOVE ME??
DID YOU EVER TRY??
HOW TRUE IS YOUR LOVE FOR ME,PLEASE TELL ME NOW??
MY BROKEN HEART WILL HEAL I KNOW
DO I HAVE TO LIVE WITH FEAR THAT YOU WILL LEAVE ME
ONE DAY,BECAUSE YOU FOUND A NEW LOVE?THAT WILL LEAVE ME BEHIND

DO YOU WANT ME TO FIGHT FOR MY LOVE??
OR WOULD YOU RATHER LET ME GO OF YOU
TO LESSEN THE MISERIES I HAD.
WOULD IT MAKE YOU HAPPY IF I'LL LET YOU GO?
THOUGH IT WOULD HURT ME SO MUCH
TELL ME WHAT TO DO,PLS HELP ME OUT...

MY BROKEN HEART WILL HEAL I KNOW
IT WILL TAKE SOMETIME BUT IT WILL GO,
IT WILL LEAVE A SCAR,THAT WILL REMIND ME OF YOU
BUT MY FORGIVENESS IS THERE AND THAT BECAUSE
I LOVE YOU......

FUN SUNDAY

DESPITE OF THE FACT THAT I WAS IN PAIN OF HAVING BAD HEADEACH IN THIS FEW DAYS,I HAD A GREAT SUNDAY WITH MY FRIEND,WE GOT THIS FABULOUS 2FOR1 VOUCHER FROM''PIZZA EXPRESS''WHICH WE NORMALLY WILL NOT GO BECAUSE OF THE PRICE,WE HAD A LONG WALK FROM HOME TO THE RESTAURANT,WITCH IS BY THE DOCK.
WE ORDERED A''ARRANCINI''AS AN APPETIZER,WHICH IS RISOTTO AND CHICKEN HAM COVERED AND FRIED WITH BREAD CRUMBS,AS OUR MAIN,I HAD DIAVOLO CLASSIC PIZZA,DEVILISHY HOT WITH SPICY BEEF,PEPERONI,ONIONS AND TABASCO,WITH HOT GREEN OR JALAPENO PEPPERS,AND OTHERS I HAD POLLO VERDURE SALAD,A WARM FEAST OF TORN CHICKEN BREAST AND CHARGRILLED ITALIAN VEGETABLES TOSSED WITH HONEY AND MUSTARD DRESSING,SERVED ON ROCKET AND BABY SPINACH AND DRIZZLED WITH BALSAMIC SYRUP,THEY BOTH WERE VERY YUMMY,ESPACIALLY MY SALAD...UUUGGGHHHH I;D LOVE TO HAVE ANOTHER ONE HEHEHEHE,,,,TIRAMISU WAS OUR DESSERT,WOOOOOOOO,,,,SO DELICIOUSLY MELTING-IN-MOUTH SENSATION.

AFTER OUR SUPER DUPER DELICIOUS LATE LUNCH,WE WENT TO CINEMA AND WATCHED MADAGASCAR 2,I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IT HILLARIOUSLY FUNNY.WELL,THAT'S OUR SUNDAY,HOW WAS YOUR SUNDAY???

TURN A NEW LEAF

Thursday,january 01.2009

It's all been the second hour of the new year 2009,i'm still awake here in the lonely night only with my friend(CALVIN)i speand,but not making me much totally happy huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,i really miss my love there(hongkong city)what he do there.with whome,and where he going to celebrate this new year???many question in my mind abt that.

Well,shall i talk abt my new year's eve first??i had lunch at japanese restaurant,where i almost exploded my stomach with the free chrisantemum tea,after that we go to watch the movie''AUSTRALIA''is very good movie''(i crying while i both the ticket for me and calvin.i remember that time when me and rock was delaying to watch the movie bcoz of my mistake)the story is so true,deep and touchy,all the stars playet well,the quality of the movie is indeed fantastic,its as if was watching a set of living photographs,breath-taking scenes of the movie is indeed fantastic,it's as if was watching a actors and actresses!!!it is a must see movie.

Enough of the new year's eve thing.....
2008 was year full of lessons for me,lessons to be a good lovers,we faught here and there,thanks god,those times teach us to understand deeperabout each other.Each day of my life brings me to greater appreciation of having''ROCK''in my life,i truly thank the lord for such a wonderfully caring and loving lovers i have(maybe even not totally)We learn to support each other and together we knit our stories,build our relationship more strongger,and expeRience our journey happiness.
Just several minutes ago,i was enjoying the view of beautiful fireworks outside my window.yeah...this week each year,they have a fireworks show on friday or saturday*they call it born-fire night.I'm always amazed by the colourful view the fireworks given in a dark sky of the night,this experience can only be enjoyed by the bare-eyes and often can be express through picture/photos.seeing it straight away gives a different and better feeling abt it.
it is a pity though...fireworks only last a few second and they are gone by then,otherwise,wouldn't it be a beautiful decoration on the night skies??

About Me

It again for the second times as a request from such a warm''GREAT''friend''Calvin''let me start...
ANOTHER 10 THINGS ABOUT ME''HANY''
1) She is very PERFECTIONIST person,who would stress herself out(and sometimes to the measure of depression)to do things as perfect as she wants.
2) Be who she is,say exacly what her mind and heart say and won't even act nice if her heart is disliking something,Too STRAIGHT FORWARD??maybe....
3) She enjoys cross-stitching,knitting,scrapbooking and sometimes sketching random things,after sometime of not knitting,i will soon start knitting a pair of mitten for my love,i hope it will work out well.
4) She dreams of having twins!!!Tee-hee...
5) She has super sensitive nose that even my friend always think and said that''hany''was a doggy in the previos life''bite rock''hahahahah...
6) People's first impression of her''RUDE,AROGANT,QUIET AND JUDES''(mungkin krn modelku garang x yeeeeeeeee)The impression after:talkactive and such a crazy gal!!!
7) She is super quiet when she is angry and always puts such a face that friend around and maybr also rock really hates(i'm working hard on reducing my temper)
8) She loves cyicling,but hates other sports,that reminds me of old time when i always compete with my BFF for fun.
9) She is not morning person.
10) She has no regrets,anything i do,i do it with pleasure,even there might be some not so good time in between.in my life,i have no regrets and will never have,i cherish everything that happends in my life,anyone that comes into my life and all that has been given into me,for i believe nothing good will come out of regret)
Cal..thanks once again for such a prise and the prayer*hugs*
ps.Anyone would like to this???you are most wellcome to do so....

Making Him Smile...!!!

wed,29 oct 2008
It's been a while since i planed to buy him new LAPTOP for his birthday gift,yeah actually i have ready both laptop for him few month ago,but after seen other model new arriaval with ame brand he wanted too.i have been surveying on prices of different stores,voila...yesterday we found a great price in one of the store in electric shop.got 30% discount of the normal price plus 150 cashback from HP laptop.thus the cheapest price i found...!!!
And i made him smile so wide and brighly..oh god..i love to make him smile.
ps:so now he has a new LAPTOP and been busy with it..!!!

Life goes on

Firstly i'd like to thank everyone who has tried to cheer me up and brighten my feeling,the disappointed lingered of my self for days in me.it strucked me even deeper when my parents asked about it(i knew they would anywy...)but they know there is nothing can be done to change my marks,the most i can do and should do is to do my best in my own life,i shall not stop.Today during my prayer time my aunt call me and sk how was in hk.i did said can u call me after my prayer time?then she ask me wether there is anything i need to be prayed on?The first word that came out from my mouth ws''confident'',i needed it so bad that i was not sure whether i can pass my bachelor with good degree as my aunt was talking.after i cut off the phone i could not help but cried i felt relatived as if all burden in my heart has been lifted up by allah.I haven't cried so much on my own lately..usually i cry to him on my own when there is a matter or two,maybe i kept it inside my self this time and it sure was painful.After i finish praying i felt much better,i felt my heart was light and i'am stronger and confident.now i can say to my self''i'am able to go through this''do my best and get a good degree.i feel great smile on my face.
As i call my chilhood friend who always praying for me was smiling at me giving me a sense and happiness''nothing wasted''he's said.it open my mind the lord let me to go through all of these things for purpose.even if it is painful in this present time and may seem useless at all to the future.it is great feeling to know that all of these thing,all of these lesson and knowledge won't be wasted,the time will come when i will using what i have learned now,i'm happy now......

I feeling so upsed

Today i'm feeling so upsed..yeah while my friend call me this morning i wanted to cry and scream loudly,so let whole world knowing what kind of things that can making me feel so upsed.

My friend had telling me about her birthday,i feel so jelous with that but what kind i do?she had an surprise from her bf and also sweet greating from the fone,card,and sms.she did recieve in the midlle of the night at 12pm.oh..my god that sooooo sweet and why i can't hide my tears from my eyes when i hear she talk about this this morning?i imagine if someone i love doing the same for me on my birthday last month!!!but tha only a dream from me,coz on that time my bf didn't say anything for me,and he didn't text me something sweet on that time.he did say forget while i remind him on his birthday.my heart was crying how could he's forget my birthday?did he really love me?why did he forget on my birthday?and why did he can remember other people birthday?i wish i could have a wonderful story like my friend.but when and whom going to give me any surprise??why i can't stop my tears while i remember this story?

No matter about him did he really forget or what i don't even know the reason,maybe i'm not so special for him like other yeah maybe.anyway i also had a great birthday(even though i still feel that it is not complete yet,since someone forgoten my birthday)i did remember always that happend,it's so wonderful for my life even my heart crying alot,yeah that time i was going to my friend's place to fix her computer,i was actually being set up for her.(i didn't know they planned a surprise little party for me)it seen really crazy that time my heart feel like out from my chest when i knock the door and start go in her house they said''SURPRISEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!''luckly my heart ws so strong inside there.my tears roll down from my eyes,how could other people remember my birthday and someone i love had forgoten about that?huh.....

It was very nice,there were nine of us including me,four other indonesians and four of them from deferent parts of the world.they cooked me delicious meals like:laksa,chicken rice,fried chicken,sushi,and veg eeeemmm yummy...!!!they sang me''HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG''and gave me a chocolate birthday cake.that was the second surprise''while i was went to toilet and when i was walking back to the living room it was so quiet,i didn't know what is going on again.then i went in there the room was dark,and they sang and i saw a cake with candle there...i'm so surprise with that i begin to cry in happiness.they gave me a sweet greeting and present too ooohhh i really feel a,amazed when i remember that time.
Yeah i can't forget that memory in 26-june-2008 is so wonderful story of my life that i never had before.yeah...anyway one of them are had indonesia boy.so we all really having fun that time.after dinner let the games begins...yeah..we'll playing game together,first game we'll play''scirsos,paper,stone''i need to fight 8 person that time,if one of us loose we need to eat one sushi yeeee...that was the starter crazy i'm so full and can't take ot anymore,then after half of the game we'll agree to change the sushi to water,oh my god we'll keep on playimg and playing any other games,and i do lost 14 times heheheh..so i had 11 big cups of water.

they all really play me on that time.i feel so tired,and sleepy.but my friend don't let me go to sleep even a while only uuuggghhh my eyes soooo heavy and very hard to opened,but they keep saying u can't go to sleep coz ur the birthday girl,oh my god...!!!

But finally they all feel pity with me after they seen my eyes can't opened anymore,they let me go to sleep and took some rest..yeah ur so good friend heheehe....i slept on her bed for while(thanks dear)and ended up i wanted to going home coz i could not slept well there.then while i'm home ready in early morning around 4 and 5 aclock i recieve many sms greating from my friend,but there no any sms i recieve from someone ilove,and so i begin to crying at that time.messege from my chilhood friend:

''where did you having little party yesterday''

''what kind of surprise party from yr from and other?''

''what did u eat for dinner?u did keep drinking water 11 big cups right?coz u did lost playing a game''oooooopppssss...how did he know???

''big question sign inside my head''how did he know what was i get and did that night''

''at that point i was a bit worried that he might reach negatively thinking..oohhh nooo''

But still feel my stomach is funny on next morning.i don't feel like eating,but my head get headech coz not enough sleept on that time,anyway it was a nice and sweet birthday surprise for me,from inside my heart i said thank you for everyone who said''happy birthday''to me,for my''chilhood friend'' that ready send me care enough to send a b'day card,sms,and gave me a call and say sweet greating first time than other.for my friend''Calvin''that gave me big mickey mouse doll,for my friend''Deandra''that gave me''mobile phone''for my birth present.for my friend''Tari''that gave me silver pendent that has my birthday sign.for my friend''Alin''that gave me''My favorite movie disc''for my mum and dad and also my bro that sending me something special heheh...and also big thanks from my deep heart for al my other friend who has big care for me by sending sms and sweet greeting,thank you so..so..muchhhhhhh.anyway now i'm 23 years old.....

Say a little prayer

One thing that keeps me a live all these yers was prayers,honestly as a person,i'am fragile inside,i cry easly,break down easily,wrry easily,want to give up easily and complain about this and that easily too,this is the real me.One that makes my parents,especially my mum,worry so much.However there is one powerful thing in this world that can keep a person a live,even the most fragile person.it's PRAYER.i'am thankful so much grateful to those,who never fail to say their prayers for me each time of their lives,my parent and my brother,and so my friend....they all give me strength and they will carry on living,to continue whatever i'm doing no matter hard nd impossible things are,they all make me feel loved.I,too,don't get lonely here or there without my family because of prayers...it's a wy to comunicate with god(allah)he is my everything.I believe,prayer are powerful,there are such things call mirales,yeah i supposed just think life it self miracles,and miracles can happend if we have a strong will to pray and to faith that it will happend.

Painful headache

I did not much this day,simply because i kept getting the same painful headache from the moment i opened my eyes those morning,it's bothered me so much that i start to wonder what cause this pain.
My friend said Anemia or even lack of oxygen in my brain...well those are really something for guess.....The headache makes me don't even want to get up from bed since it is painful...aaarrhhhh how i'm supposed to get up tomorrow to go somewhere early in the morning with this pain??it all begins again tomorrow...the deadly assigggggments and not-fun at all.

Uggggggggghhhhhhhhhh

Tuesday,september 16,2008

I managed to get my self out of bed on time this morning,ready to go for some exercise or do some cleaning in my room,i just ignored the headache so that i don't get bothered by it.reach at the park as the earliest attendant and was really looking forward to see the new person...hehehhe...one,two,there familiar faes come along at the park to do some exercise too,but much of them are do jogging and do some other exercise.while i do jogging was about to start,then a completely unfamiliar fe showed up,it was a''GUY''!!!...the uncle who walk beside to me instanly laughing after seeing my face expresion.whatttttttt...??another guy!!out of disbelief,it is true he is the one,i thought was a girl...yeah thanks to god..i put my hope high that the person would be a girl eeeeemmmm....
so yeah..now it's even toughter for me,a girl competing with that guy just great...and perfect.
I'm really tired today,extremly tired.even when i met my friend in a supermrket,she said i look exhausted,yes...i'am.my mind was blank,walking like a robot around city centre.luckily i managed to get part of my grocery shopping done.i go around the city super market to get some cheap veggies,apple,brown pear,yogurt and milk uuugghhhhh very heavy though,my hands felt like falling apart.And today's weather is so hooooooottttttttt and on top of that the sun really shining down on my head strongly.right just perfect combination for me.

I really fell upset

These days i so often call my parent on the phone and on home phone,but they not answer my call till 10 times,i'm in big tension and so worry with them all''my mum,my dad,and my bro''what's going on??but i'm not giving up and do keep on trying to call them,coz since two month ago i didn't call my parent like usually,coz i don't know how to explain to them specially my parent(i'm sorry mum,and dad,i really miss u all,but what can i do???)
Anyway i'm so happy when finally they answer my call(thanks god,they are still fine)i'm talking so much with my parent and so i ask them why did they didn't answer my call just now?my dad said they leave the phone at home and they where in my uncle house coz my elder cousin get some accident.me and my dad talking here and there and also do some joking hehehhe...it's really make me happy today,but that happy felling of mine are not stay longer,it stop since my dad told me about ramadan there and also about eid-.i know they are preparing for eid this time.but i try to whisper my self''it's ok hani..next time u can have time to celebrate with them,inshaalah''.
And so i can cheer up again after all,then sudelly my dad asking me''daughter...u had promise with us b4 eid-u will earn money for the eid-day?because u said to me that don't took any amount from my own acount for the eid,so i didn't took it to buy everything''Ohh...god,i forgot with my promise(well anyway i'm not forget with promise i had said to my parent)but for now i didn't have any money....yeah...i ready took all of my ammount for my parent to go in''mecca''so nothing leave now,only leeft $10.000 hk dlr but i could took that money,usually i need to send money for eid- since first of sept,but i didn't send it coz someone(.....???)aks me to send amount for him to buy some medicine for him self,i really confused that time wich one i must do transfer the money?my parent or him?coz both of them are meaningful in my life,and i dont know what should i do?
Finally i had to choose one of them,and so i did choose him coz he need more that money but beside that i'm crying alot coz i ignored my own parent and ask them to wait without say anything.and now the eid- is coming soon where i can get the money from and send to them like i had fullfill my promise to them?i really confused this time,event they have money in their account but i dont want they use the own money for this.and what should i doooooooooooooooo?????i can't say anything to them in this time and i don't know what to do?if i send first of next month it's too late for this,but if i don't send what will they think about me?for all my family(mum,dad,bro)from bottom of my heart i really sy sorry for this,coz i can't fulfill my own promise this time,i really so sorry for all.(i'm really fell upset dady...i wish u don't fell how upset was my felling this time and wish u don't fell that i'm crying alot since i call u today,pls don't think negative about me....i will fulfill all my promise.i do love you all...)

My new buddy

For the las several weeks,i have had a new friend accompanying me all the time at home.so..who is it...?????????It's brazilian turtle that i bought at a supermarket.but...untill now i still don't know wether it's male or female,i just have no clue at all.But i named it''ROCK''hahahahha....because when i miss my love so i just can waching at the turtle...(sorry baby just kidding''i love u so much my love'')
My turtle loves to eat and very clever(huuuussshhh just like my lovely baby rock)i give fish food,turtle food,veg,and mosquitos.sometimes(if i catch one...!!!and when it's dinner time and it sees me close,it'll come and approach me hehehehhe...so cute.it is fun to have a pet.i'm enjoying it very much...

Especially for you:bro

Today,as i sid previously,is my bro birthday,it's his 20th year of life,no fancy gift for him,only a little greeting card from me,but i'm sure it still is meaningful for him,for me,it is special gifts because it contains my gratefulness and thankfulness to my''allah''for giving me such a special brother,and my thankfulness to him for being who he is all the time,i feel that thank you is never enough when it's compared to what he's done for me.but from hes point of view,a little thank you might be able to put a smile on her face,that's what importnt about it,to make him smile,to make him happy.

Happy burtday bro...!!!

I remember the time we were little...laughing,crying,fighting with eah other,it was moments to remeber and i will always remember..!!!

now that you are grown up,i'm glad we had strong bond,sibling-hood and good friend.I'am thankful to you...for lstening to me...for the times together,for the things we learnt....Thnk you for being my brother...happy birthday bro....happy 20th birthday...!!!!may it be a blessed and a sweet one...!!!!!1
Love''your sist''

08-sept-2008

Fallen leaves..new hopes will grow

As i walking across the parkinng lots of university to the bus stop.i stopped on piles of fallen leaves with defferent browns colours,some light browns,some light browns,some dark browns,some yellow browns and some are greenish.as i moved forward wind blew other leaves separating them from the branches they were attahed to,it was like walking n a rain of leaves.
This happend every year,every autum in between september and november,and the tress become''bald''leafless..not really a pleasent scenery,really..!!!a bunch of trees in the park without any leaves,but i think if they(the trees i mean)were given choices,they will still choose this way being bald in autums and winter.
Yet they won't be stay bald for the rest of their lives,when winter passed away,spring comes new bud around the brances,new leaves grow gracefully a sign of new growth,new life,a new glory.
In the middle of spring they will be ready,trees full of leaves,ready to greet the coming sumer,the birds come and rest under the branch,to cooll down or to continually live under it's shadows,wich gives peace and comfort.and so the fallen leaves paid off for the better,greener and more beautiful growth in the future.
So is my lives..
There are things that lord wants me to give up in this present time,things that maybe dearly to me that i hold them so tight and dont want to let go,things that have been around and so familiar in my lives.
Let me learn from the trees and fallen leaves..letting go those precious''leaves''may be not easy task,but when the lord ask me to do so,he will give me the strengh to acomplish it,he will be with me and guide me step by step even i don't feel it.for when he does that,he already stores something better,something more beutiful and delightful for me in replae of things i give up.in that way...i grow each day better..greener,and beautiful in the eyes of the lord.
Let me learn from the fallen leaves...........

A called

These days,i so often call and been called on the phone by my brother,i'm happy in a way...I have a family nearby in the coutry,even though i still don't know when i'am going to visit him.
I'am sure he is coping there,i believe he can do it eeeehhhmmm like:ooking,washing,and all of the other stuffs by himself,he is a brave man...!!!yes...now he is a man,not a little boy i used to play with some years ago...
Time surely flies..we both are not in chilhood anymore,but it's good to know that we are sister and brother,insparatable ones.i know it for sure...i missed the time we hatted together in the night time just like two weeks ago.we still like we used to...shared the same bed and tell each other's bad sleepinng attitude.
Aaaaahhhh...i'am really grateful and blessed to have you''bro''!!!you are not only a brother,but also a friend:a dear one.good luck of us...hope i will visit you soon down there,god bless you bro...i love you...