nice

''NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU''

If i had to live my live
Without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you i see
Forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love brfore
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and
We both know they'll take us where we
Want to go,holde me..
Touch me now i don't want
To live without you...

Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now
How much I LOVE YOU
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now
How much I LOVE YOU
The world may change my
Whole life thru but..
NOTHING'S GONNA
CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU

If the road a head is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I be there for you
If you should need me
You don't have to change a thing

I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now,touch me now
I don't want to live without you

SONGS FOR MY DEAR BABE''BILAL''

Hmmmm saturday

Saturday,14,feb,2009
Today was started with breakfast at McCafe west coast,it's pretty brand new,i like the place a lot,i think this one is the coolest place to hang out in MACAU.The danish is quiet yummy,but the cofee is a bit over price if i compared with HK(or maybe in HK,the price has been increased already,but yeti dont know)

I was enjoying my breakfast,suddelly the first annoyance happened,CALVIN said he was forgot to bring his handphone,then luckily today is saturday and quiet relax day in the history so far.secondly everytime i tried to concentrate to my book which i purposely brought along with me to read while enjoying my breakfast.CALVIN always commented or talked something to me,Thirdly a group of guys arrived and seated atthe back of my chair.after i look at them then i stand up go to washroom for a while,while i came to the table and meet CALVIN i showed red scarf and tissue there that writed...?(on picture above)i was laughing so laudly afterthat till CALVIN think what was going on with me hahahahahah....then i said just forget it xixixixix

On the way,suddenly CALVIN phone ring....i was quiet MAD at him considering he said that he forgot to bring his hp,but actually it was inside his right hand pocket instead of the usual one in the left hmmmmmmm.....

New strange habits

Sunday,15,feb,2009

Last sunday morning i was preparing the breakfast,i looked out through my window nothing happend.i took a carton of milk from the fridge then look out of thewindow,the ambulance was parking in the middle of the road,i tried to find out what was happening outside,i looked right and left,finally saw a small bicycle was laying under the front part of the van.
I wondered how the rider was,was he alright,was something bad happend to him??but no trace of blood.after stunned there quiet a while i saw the paramedics carried back the bed,it was empty,then i felt scared.but finally i saw the paramedics was carrying the boy,it was only his hand,think the might break his arm.after that incident suddenly i felt nausea,then i blood started to withdraw nearly fainted.it is becoz of the accident??i mean i can not see any accident at all??never known i can't stand this type of things before.then last night suddenly blood flowed out through my left nose,hmmm quiet weird usually this type of things only happens on children.but i have no history of nose bleeding at all during my chilhood...but now like newly found habbits.

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Present from friend

Spa Manicure

I had just my manicure and pedicure done this eveing with CALVIN,after long wait and
just an unpleasant encountered with the voxy counter at bugis*puuuuiiiiihhhh**
Yesterday i went to the counter about 5.45pm then the girl said next available time slot will be 07pm,so CALVIN said ok to wait,then we went for our dinner first at dim sum,quiet boring food and made my stomach weird...actually my body felt weird since yesterday afternoon...came back to the counter about 6.47pm,the girl just ignored us then we decided to go out again and came back at 07 pm,the girl try to ignored us again then i just stayed there,didn't care...finally she attended to us then said sorry maybe we could come back at 8.30pm,but finally i gave up i said''no''and said i'll came back next time...
But this afternoon i called the counter again,but finally the girl said i could come at 06.00pm,when me and calvin arrived it was still 05,45,and the girl asked me to come back at 06.00pm,oh shitttttttt...both of us said together hihihi....actually the girl had nothing to do at all...but i followed her instruction and came back at 06.00pm.not bad she did it straight away,and i also asked if there's possibility to do pedicure as well.she said let's see,but finally she did it for both of us...Got incident the girl cut my finger and bleed,she apologised so many time but i said it's ok...you know me well right??i'm alays nice to everybody...but overall experience good...i'm sure we;ll come back for next visit...now my hands and feet are so smooth like a baby...just same as CALVIN hand too....happyyy and thanks my friend....

Valantine's Day

saturday,14,feb,2009
With our LOVE>>dayz are>>Sadday,Moanday,Tearsday,Wasteday.Thirstday,Fightday,Shatterday<<That the sms i received this morning which of course i forwarded to my friend again.yesterday we were at gift shop at SANMALO shopping centre buying chocolate for valentine day,lots of students doing last minute shopping for valentine's day,one young guy asking how much a box of chocolate with ared heart shape box at Godiva is it??it is Mop100 patakas,then it made me think how expensive the price of celebrating Valentine's day.but maybe he asked the wrong shop,that's all.there are still a lots of shops selling these kinds of stuffs without the need to hurt your pocket though.
This morning i recieved surprise number one,CALVIN came and visit me and bought me a dozen of pin roses.
Surprise number two,he picked blue colour wrapped and pink ribbon,my favorite colours*wow****
I'm so much happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy but not totally complete yet coz no any present from''rock''huh...so bad and so saddddddddddddd i feel.

Valentine reflection.

Anyway this things always inside my mind,be it during Valentine's day,if obly i could
do Ctrl-Alt-Del,or reset my life all over again...but i realise whatever had been done,can not undone.it's no use to keep on regretting about the past,what i can do is not to repeat the mistake and just continue life and learn from the lesson...

It's sounds simple and easy...but yet again i find it's very hard to practice...and i hope this year i would be able to learn how to just continue life and try not to repeat the same mistakes anymore.try to do whatever i want to do because life is short...

I dont want to live my life and regret at the end,just because i didn't have chance or not giving my self a chance to do something that i really wanted to do in my life...

hopefully i could have the courage to do so...ckckckckckck...

Sweet messege from baby''REHAN''

FROM:ROCK
13,feb,2009

Life ends when stop dreanibg,hope ends when u stop believing and love ends when u stop caring.so dream,hope and love...makes life beautiful.


FROM:ROCK
12,02,2009

I'm feeling so happy,do u know why?coz i'm so much lucky,do u know how?coz god loves me,do u know how?coz he gave me a gift.do u know what?its YOU my love.


FROM:ROCK
09,feb,2009

Hi moon,dim ur light,hello wind!breeze soft,hi flower!blossom slowly.hello earth!
spin gently cause my friend is going to sleep.good night.


FROM:ROCK
07,FEB.2009

The smalles words is''I''the sweetwst words is''LOVE''And the dearest person in the world is''YOU''Thats why I LOVE YOU.

Messege greeting from MY LOVE''ROCK''

Fom:ROCK
RECIEVED:02:39:51AM
+923335151239

Im sorry honey,i'm really busy in these days coz sunny is here,try to understand me plz.i love u honey.happy valentine honey,i love u forever my bb.


From:ROCK
14,FEB,2009
RECIEVED:02:37:53AM
+923335151239

My baby,mylove and my honey,wishing you very very valentine my sweet heart,i love u
so much my honey,i wish u were here with me and i would kiss u on ur lips.


Fom:ROCK
14.FEB,2009
RECIEVE:02:36:41am
+923335151239

I hope you can understand me honey that i i'm busy,honey,once again,wishing u very very happy valentine.i love u forever my bb.ur mine sweet heart and i'am urs.


Thanks my love...i love you so much and''happy VALENTINE day to you''

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY''BABE ROCK''

To be in love with you such a pleasure,each day i'am reminded that you are such a treasure.you have allowed me to know what love is really about,oh for all things great you make my heart shout with you i want to spend my life yes...my sweet i so want to be your wife,together forever with you is where i shall be our love will shine shine bright for all to see.
I LOVE YPU,I LOVE YOU...what more can i say???
to you my love''HAPPY VALENTINES DAY''i love u jani...

For my love

saturday,14,feb,2009

Dearest my beloved''BILAL''my huntum,my hunny bunnie...

Thank you so much for such a lovely and sweet memory that ready past between us since 14,feb,2008.is not easy to get through our long distance relationship in a year had past.we're walk together in tears,doubting,fighting,argument and jelousing felling to each other.we never know who starting 1st to fight and doubt all the time,wether you or me????but the most is from me....!!!hehehehhe....thanks for your patience and your love you had given to me babe...


I'm so dazzled and touched by your''LOVE''
I'm so grateful to be loved by you...!!!
I thank the lord each day for the wonderful you(even not totally)
No one but you completes me...
I LOVE you hun....!!!
You are the best decision i ever made and will always be...!!!
I'm so happy that each second passes to bring me back to you...
As for the time being,the lord be the protector of our LOVE...
LETS CELEBRATE OUR LOVE...

your wify,your hunny bunnie...

An dry letter for you

friday,13,feb,2009

While i'am waiting here for the news i would like to write you a letter,if that is alright with you.

of course,you do not mind at all because you never mind at all when you are makng rude comments about my self.

you,with your poisonous words coming out of your mouth,you could make me sick to the stomach,you would judge me without looking in the mirror,to see who you are in reality,to see how your image is really like.

you always say that is not important,thata is not something i should take it in personally,but you prove that your words would slice my heart like a sharp knife.you make me cry at night,alone,because there is no one besides me.

here i'am in my greatest pain yet you fail to take notice how fragile i'am,you lash and you spew profanities at me,i have now here to go.

i want to break the tether off the ground,i want to shield my self from you,but i cannot i have nowhere to go,i'am chained to this life with the devil who is waiting to see me fall.

do you realize how much have you hurt me??have you relized that you are cold while i need warm??

i do not want to go on,yet i have too much burden.nobody is here to help,nobody is here to understand the pain,would you just go away and leave me in pain??

i want to scream,i want to be free,my eyes would not dry for one moment.is it too much to ask??have you got no sympathy for me anymore??i'am not an animal,i'am a human being,i have feelings,i'am not a wall.

there is no light at the end of tunnel yet....
pls god help me...!!!!

Rip

thursday,12,feb,2009


Last monday after i finished my shower i saw 4 misscalled in my phone,normally i didn't bother to call back all the misscall,unless i recognized the number.but this time i called back,but when i asked what company is that,the other recipient asked me back who i was.i was confused..i had so many identity,me as....???worker,me as a friend,me as a family,so finally the other party gave up,he said maybe he got the wrong number.
Not long after that the same number called again,and i recognized the voice as my friend''CALVIN''from hongkong,i was so much happy coz he still remember me.not like any other huh....even someone i love also doesn't even remember me,but CALVIN is the best for my life and heart.thanks cal...for yr call and yr care even by sms,phone call,and so email.

Right or wrong

I was sitting on my balcony
not to enjoy the beautiful view like usual...
but tried to make me feel more calm
i had a PROBLEM with my heart...
so i have to think clearly to make an important decision
accompanied with my iPOD+Tissue box
yes,i need lots of tissue to wipe my tears..
because I CRIED a lot too
and suddelly i fell a sleep...
wasn't really realize till i open my eyes and the sky is already dark....x
i've made it...
i mean the decision...
i think it was fine
i was happy too that have made such a right desicion...
but now,i keep wondering...
did i make it right or wrong...??
my heart is full of DOUBT!!!
CAN I TRUST you???
GOD,bin ja imer verwirrt
hab null ahnung!!!

What is life

**Life is an ADVENTURE...Dare it
**Life is a BEAUTY ...Praise it
**Life is a Challenge ...Meet it
**Life is a DUTY ...Perform it
**Life is a LOVE ...Enjoy it
**Life is a TRAGEDY ...Face it
**Life is a STRUGGLE ...Fight it
**Life is a PROMISE ...Fulfill it
**Life is a GAME ...Play it
**Life is a GIFT ...Accept it
**Life is a journey ...Complete it
**Life is a MYSTERY ...Unfold it
**Life is a GOAL ...Achieve it
**Life is a OPPORTUNITY...Take it
**Life is a PUZZLE ...Solve it
**Life is a SONG ...Sing it
**Life is a SORROW ...Overcome it
**Life is a SPIRIT ...Realize it

IT'S ME

You are gold elephant type of person,who tends to be...
>>>Fresh,Straight forward and Hold pure heart.
>>>You look very active,cheerful and articulate.
>>>You are good looking woman heheheheh...
>>>You tend to be very intelligent,and are no a difficult person
>>>Your honest and good personality attracts many people
>>>You also possess will power and have perseverance...
>>>You put yr maximum effort in anyting you do,which gives a favorable
impression to others.
>>>Although,you dont depend on others easly,your rationalism and argumentative
personality is something you should watch ot for.
>>>You sometimes change completely and surprises people.
>>>Those gold elephants who jad lived most of their lives with their parents
have this tendency.
>>>They hurt other people's feelings by being too blunt.
>>>Nevertheless,you tend to be extremely polite most of the times.
>>>Those of you who have left home and live independently tend to be polite.
>>>The loneliness of living on your own seems to mature your character.
>>>You will not go into deep relationship with ordinary office working men.
>>>But you do not go much for macho type and those who assert themselves too
much.
>>>Your cheerful and active personality may give a wrong impression,but you
will be extremely good at keeping your home.

>>>HIHIHI...BELIEVE IT OR NOT,SOME OF THEM ARE SO TRUE....XXXX<<<

WOMAN AND MAN:two wrongs wouldn't make a right

monday,02 feb 2009

03.33PM
We had a fight,its all about nothing actually,NOTHING important.neither me not my girl can control our word.she called me loser and i call her to pissed of,that was just enough for meso before i do something stupider i left her crying.


07.30PM
Home already still sick of my voice,i decided not to talk,great.now i have time to talk with another of my room friend which she never like,thres no more distrubing voice again around me.

Tuesday.
03.44pm
i've a lot time to talk with my other room friend and so hang around together with thm,it really make me happy without her on my side,his what i want since along time ago hheheheheeh.....without that voice or it just me?ok..i'm very sleepy anyway what a day is today...i took my pillow and my blanket and slept on my bed,and suddelly one sound really make ne feed up''her soubd shout at me with this words''why u not cook''??oh shit....i said to her...

09.00PM

hey theres me,her and my other room friends was in the room and we're talking together except her xixixix...no one talk to her yupyyyyyyy....o must thanks to all but she look really upset after fighting with me.unhappy face makes me hold this idea twice,i think that those yesterday fight isn't my fault anyway,so what is the point of appology???

11.00am

Where is her??is everything alright??og she was so sad and keep on crying at the window side....xaxaaxaxax

12.30PM
She was in room together with my other room friends but she doesn't hace word for me....my jaw is sick,i want to talk so bad those fight and everything is nothing but both the silliest things in the world...

Life can be soo funny

saturday,07 feb 2009

I do have''NO''reason to be angry to you,oh my god(allah)..i know that you always have a much bigger plan for us than ours...i've always been told that the way you works do not same at all with the capability of humans brains...but tell me ALLAH,why life can be so funny...??its not that i'm ungrateful with my life,i'm so happy to live my life and be who i am right now...maybe this is just the unordinary work of my humans brain,but ALLAH,i just do not understand,why theres war??why it take so long??why people can be so cruel??why the bad guys happy and the good people have to suffered??i reckon maybe justice just have to wait until the right day...i do remember your promise to us,that after this''rain''there will be a rainbow.
And mighty ALLAH,i have one more question...why do the ages of human life can be so funny...one day you took my friends so fast that they dont even reach eighteen,but on other day you give my grandpa so much lived..and some times baby doesn't even have a change to be born...this is a bit funny to me...but i know and i always believe,theres always be so much reasons for you,the best reasons,that not every human would understand to do that....
and ALLAH,i just want to know,and i know you must already knew''I LOVE YOU SO MUCH''although for me life is so funny,i love life and i promise with all my heart,i will nver ever waste my life...i know life can be short,but ALLAH thanks for giving me my life...

This thing drives me mad..

Say''YES''if you want it,
Or''NO''if you do not want it,
Coz for now.i do not have time for this...
You said''OK''yesterday
But''NOT OK''today
As for now,i do not have time for this...
So better make up your mind..
And let me know if you are''AGREE or DISAGREE''
Coz i really do not have time for this...