My new buddy

For the las several weeks,i have had a new friend accompanying me all the time at home.so..who is it...?????????It's brazilian turtle that i bought at a supermarket.but...untill now i still don't know wether it's male or female,i just have no clue at all.But i named it''ROCK''hahahahha....because when i miss my love so i just can waching at the turtle...(sorry baby just kidding''i love u so much my love'')
My turtle loves to eat and very clever(huuuussshhh just like my lovely baby rock)i give fish food,turtle food,veg,and mosquitos.sometimes(if i catch one...!!!and when it's dinner time and it sees me close,it'll come and approach me hehehehhe...so cute.it is fun to have a pet.i'm enjoying it very much...

Especially for you:bro

Today,as i sid previously,is my bro birthday,it's his 20th year of life,no fancy gift for him,only a little greeting card from me,but i'm sure it still is meaningful for him,for me,it is special gifts because it contains my gratefulness and thankfulness to my''allah''for giving me such a special brother,and my thankfulness to him for being who he is all the time,i feel that thank you is never enough when it's compared to what he's done for me.but from hes point of view,a little thank you might be able to put a smile on her face,that's what importnt about it,to make him smile,to make him happy.

Happy burtday bro...!!!

I remember the time we were little...laughing,crying,fighting with eah other,it was moments to remeber and i will always remember..!!!

now that you are grown up,i'm glad we had strong bond,sibling-hood and good friend.I'am thankful to you...for lstening to me...for the times together,for the things we learnt....Thnk you for being my brother...happy birthday bro....happy 20th birthday...!!!!may it be a blessed and a sweet one...!!!!!1
Love''your sist''

08-sept-2008

Fallen leaves..new hopes will grow

As i walking across the parkinng lots of university to the bus stop.i stopped on piles of fallen leaves with defferent browns colours,some light browns,some light browns,some dark browns,some yellow browns and some are greenish.as i moved forward wind blew other leaves separating them from the branches they were attahed to,it was like walking n a rain of leaves.
This happend every year,every autum in between september and november,and the tress become''bald''leafless..not really a pleasent scenery,really..!!!a bunch of trees in the park without any leaves,but i think if they(the trees i mean)were given choices,they will still choose this way being bald in autums and winter.
Yet they won't be stay bald for the rest of their lives,when winter passed away,spring comes new bud around the brances,new leaves grow gracefully a sign of new growth,new life,a new glory.
In the middle of spring they will be ready,trees full of leaves,ready to greet the coming sumer,the birds come and rest under the branch,to cooll down or to continually live under it's shadows,wich gives peace and comfort.and so the fallen leaves paid off for the better,greener and more beautiful growth in the future.
So is my lives..
There are things that lord wants me to give up in this present time,things that maybe dearly to me that i hold them so tight and dont want to let go,things that have been around and so familiar in my lives.
Let me learn from the trees and fallen leaves..letting go those precious''leaves''may be not easy task,but when the lord ask me to do so,he will give me the strengh to acomplish it,he will be with me and guide me step by step even i don't feel it.for when he does that,he already stores something better,something more beutiful and delightful for me in replae of things i give up.in that way...i grow each day better..greener,and beautiful in the eyes of the lord.
Let me learn from the fallen leaves...........

A called

These days,i so often call and been called on the phone by my brother,i'm happy in a way...I have a family nearby in the coutry,even though i still don't know when i'am going to visit him.
I'am sure he is coping there,i believe he can do it eeeehhhmmm like:ooking,washing,and all of the other stuffs by himself,he is a brave man...!!!yes...now he is a man,not a little boy i used to play with some years ago...
Time surely flies..we both are not in chilhood anymore,but it's good to know that we are sister and brother,insparatable ones.i know it for sure...i missed the time we hatted together in the night time just like two weeks ago.we still like we used to...shared the same bed and tell each other's bad sleepinng attitude.
Aaaaahhhh...i'am really grateful and blessed to have you''bro''!!!you are not only a brother,but also a friend:a dear one.good luck of us...hope i will visit you soon down there,god bless you bro...i love you...

Deeply touched

Oh...i feel so relieved now...
I have passed the presentation,it went very well eventhough i was very well eventhough i was actually feeling awfully.thanks to my family and my friends who had given me their countinuous supports throughout the day and also everyday.Especially my family:My mom&dad,also my younger brother.they were so great...eventhough they are miles way from me,but i could actually the support,they were giving me every second of time,they prayed,they encouraged,they convicent me that i can do it WITH GOD.
Thank you lord..for giving me a great family,i'am so so..thankful for them and thankful for you guidance throught the presentation.i know lord that without your presence there.

One day in chocolate shop

sunday:24 ags 2008

As i was trying to sit on one of the hight chairs,one lady stared at me...''odd..this asian girl is eating a cone of ice cream??!!''that's probably what she though of me,since she didn't stop staring at me until the time she left the shop.I heve been carving for an ice cream several day,and so..i had an ice cream.i felt bit misplaced by the way she stared at me,but the feeling quikly faded and replaed by thought of many things i stared out of the window.
The shop is located in the middle between a train station and a big shopping centre,it serves some hot beverages,cakes,ice creams and chocolates.wether people wants to just enjoy so,ething warm or pop in for a gift.it is there to satisfy it's costomers with nice and friendly staffs however it was not that which fascinated me.
I saw people....!!!
I saw couples holding hands and often kissing lightly,they look happy,but do they really have feeling of appreciation having their partner close to them?or is it just a lust?well they might not know how it feels to be far away from each other and being unreachable easly.''never mind i just wondering i said to my self''
I saw a daughter hugging her mum,who just arrived into this town to visit her daughter,they look happy,i sensed and saw it in their faces,the wide smiles and the emotions flowed through when they hugged,my feelings mingled..tears almost came unwelcomely.the scene i saw,potrayet an important relationship between mother and her child.without any commans,my brain brought back the memory regarding my mother,i missed her and wished her to be close to me,''one day you'll see her again and close to her everyday,don't worry..''i mumbled.
I saw some muslim people going in the direction to the station.aahhhh...my soul wanted to fly home,it may seemed so unrelated,but to me...??that how i interpretend what those muslim people were doing?RAMADAN AND EID...how nice to be at home during this time,''The time will come soon..''i whisper to my self.
And as i was finishing of my ice cream and stopping my self from wondering further away.