Right or wrong

I was sitting on my balcony
not to enjoy the beautiful view like usual...
but tried to make me feel more calm
i had a PROBLEM with my heart...
so i have to think clearly to make an important decision
accompanied with my iPOD+Tissue box
yes,i need lots of tissue to wipe my tears..
because I CRIED a lot too
and suddelly i fell a sleep...
wasn't really realize till i open my eyes and the sky is already dark....x
i've made it...
i mean the decision...
i think it was fine
i was happy too that have made such a right desicion...
but now,i keep wondering...
did i make it right or wrong...??
my heart is full of DOUBT!!!
CAN I TRUST you???
GOD,bin ja imer verwirrt
hab null ahnung!!!

What is life

**Life is an ADVENTURE...Dare it
**Life is a BEAUTY ...Praise it
**Life is a Challenge ...Meet it
**Life is a DUTY ...Perform it
**Life is a LOVE ...Enjoy it
**Life is a TRAGEDY ...Face it
**Life is a STRUGGLE ...Fight it
**Life is a PROMISE ...Fulfill it
**Life is a GAME ...Play it
**Life is a GIFT ...Accept it
**Life is a journey ...Complete it
**Life is a MYSTERY ...Unfold it
**Life is a GOAL ...Achieve it
**Life is a OPPORTUNITY...Take it
**Life is a PUZZLE ...Solve it
**Life is a SONG ...Sing it
**Life is a SORROW ...Overcome it
**Life is a SPIRIT ...Realize it

IT'S ME

You are gold elephant type of person,who tends to be...
>>>Fresh,Straight forward and Hold pure heart.
>>>You look very active,cheerful and articulate.
>>>You are good looking woman heheheheh...
>>>You tend to be very intelligent,and are no a difficult person
>>>Your honest and good personality attracts many people
>>>You also possess will power and have perseverance...
>>>You put yr maximum effort in anyting you do,which gives a favorable
impression to others.
>>>Although,you dont depend on others easly,your rationalism and argumentative
personality is something you should watch ot for.
>>>You sometimes change completely and surprises people.
>>>Those gold elephants who jad lived most of their lives with their parents
have this tendency.
>>>They hurt other people's feelings by being too blunt.
>>>Nevertheless,you tend to be extremely polite most of the times.
>>>Those of you who have left home and live independently tend to be polite.
>>>The loneliness of living on your own seems to mature your character.
>>>You will not go into deep relationship with ordinary office working men.
>>>But you do not go much for macho type and those who assert themselves too
much.
>>>Your cheerful and active personality may give a wrong impression,but you
will be extremely good at keeping your home.

>>>HIHIHI...BELIEVE IT OR NOT,SOME OF THEM ARE SO TRUE....XXXX<<<

WOMAN AND MAN:two wrongs wouldn't make a right

monday,02 feb 2009

03.33PM
We had a fight,its all about nothing actually,NOTHING important.neither me not my girl can control our word.she called me loser and i call her to pissed of,that was just enough for meso before i do something stupider i left her crying.


07.30PM
Home already still sick of my voice,i decided not to talk,great.now i have time to talk with another of my room friend which she never like,thres no more distrubing voice again around me.

Tuesday.
03.44pm
i've a lot time to talk with my other room friend and so hang around together with thm,it really make me happy without her on my side,his what i want since along time ago hheheheheeh.....without that voice or it just me?ok..i'm very sleepy anyway what a day is today...i took my pillow and my blanket and slept on my bed,and suddelly one sound really make ne feed up''her soubd shout at me with this words''why u not cook''??oh shit....i said to her...

09.00PM

hey theres me,her and my other room friends was in the room and we're talking together except her xixixix...no one talk to her yupyyyyyyy....o must thanks to all but she look really upset after fighting with me.unhappy face makes me hold this idea twice,i think that those yesterday fight isn't my fault anyway,so what is the point of appology???

11.00am

Where is her??is everything alright??og she was so sad and keep on crying at the window side....xaxaaxaxax

12.30PM
She was in room together with my other room friends but she doesn't hace word for me....my jaw is sick,i want to talk so bad those fight and everything is nothing but both the silliest things in the world...

Life can be soo funny

saturday,07 feb 2009

I do have''NO''reason to be angry to you,oh my god(allah)..i know that you always have a much bigger plan for us than ours...i've always been told that the way you works do not same at all with the capability of humans brains...but tell me ALLAH,why life can be so funny...??its not that i'm ungrateful with my life,i'm so happy to live my life and be who i am right now...maybe this is just the unordinary work of my humans brain,but ALLAH,i just do not understand,why theres war??why it take so long??why people can be so cruel??why the bad guys happy and the good people have to suffered??i reckon maybe justice just have to wait until the right day...i do remember your promise to us,that after this''rain''there will be a rainbow.
And mighty ALLAH,i have one more question...why do the ages of human life can be so funny...one day you took my friends so fast that they dont even reach eighteen,but on other day you give my grandpa so much lived..and some times baby doesn't even have a change to be born...this is a bit funny to me...but i know and i always believe,theres always be so much reasons for you,the best reasons,that not every human would understand to do that....
and ALLAH,i just want to know,and i know you must already knew''I LOVE YOU SO MUCH''although for me life is so funny,i love life and i promise with all my heart,i will nver ever waste my life...i know life can be short,but ALLAH thanks for giving me my life...

This thing drives me mad..

Say''YES''if you want it,
Or''NO''if you do not want it,
Coz for now.i do not have time for this...
You said''OK''yesterday
But''NOT OK''today
As for now,i do not have time for this...
So better make up your mind..
And let me know if you are''AGREE or DISAGREE''
Coz i really do not have time for this...

A farewell

monday,feb,02,2009

last monday,a day i could never forget.after more than two months speant our time together,through some misunderstanding and unavoided little fights,maybe this is the time to say good bye and see u next time,coz from my botom of my heart i didnt interesting with her anymore.the time has really came...a sweet couple,an acceptable behaviours,a cozy atmosphere,a great understanding,a suitable manners and jabits,good food,clean house,stocks on the fridge,a nice and memorable memories.part time jobs,girl talks,conspiracies,an amazing trip.have fun gone mad,dirty little secrets,friendship are forever,long sleepless nights,laughs and tears,a farwell and last but not least,a gift from heart

My friend says about me???

thursday,06 feb 2009
My friends says about me???

''WHAT YOUR CUTE MONSTER SAYS ABOUT YOU??''
1) You have enthusiasm for almost everything you do in life,you have a super
playful attitude.
2) You are curious about the world,and i love to learn,i rather figure
people out than rush to judge them.
3) You inner demon is pride,you can't help but have a big head sometimes.
4) People think you're cute because you're adventurous,you always bring some
fun,which is super charming.


''WHAT KIND OF MUFFI ARE YOU???
1) You don't like to rock the boat,and you're the most concent when you're making
everyone else happy.
2) You are very loyal,you'll defend your family and friends,even if you secretaly
disapprove of what they're doing.
3) You tend to be a bit shy and withdrawn,you dont make friends quickly/easly.
4) But once you do make a good friend,the chances are high that you'll be friends
for life.

''WHAT TYPE OF CASTLE ARE YOU''???
1) You are a bit tentative when it comes to new experience,You have to push yourself
to try new things,but once you do you love adventure.
2) You like to think that people are impressed by you,you know that you have a lot
to offer.
3) You are a very realistic person,you see the world as it is,flaws and all.
4) Right now,stress occasionally makes you feel trapped in your life.
5) You usually have a clear perspective on things though!!!
6) Overall,your life is calm and steady.not much stirs you,and each day is full of
joy.
7) You are extremely optimistic about the future,you feel like things are always
getting better.

''WHAT YOUR NAME SAYS ABOUT YOU???''
''HANI FIRLIKA''
YOUR NAME SAYS THAT YOU ARE MOSTLY:

1)Charismatic but impulsive.
2)Your name also says you are:
>>Independent but distant
>>Passionate but flighty
>>Fiery but unbalanced

''WHAT KIND OF CEREAL ARE YOU''???

1) You are creative and inventive
2) You don't much the ordinary or normal way.
3) You like to explore new ideas and life style
4) You're the type most ;ile;y to cook your self an amazing home made breakfast
CKCKCKCKKCCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK......

Pancakes(are simple to make)

Friday,feb,06 2009

I made myself pancakes today,it's actually for breakfast,but i woke up a little(too)late.so i've skipped brealfast and ate the pancakes together with Angga and Jansen for lunch.i don't have any recipe for pancake and was too lazy to search on internet,i meant how hard is it to make a pancake??pancake is simple...pancake is simple...it's the simpliest cake on earth...it's simple...

I've said those words like hundret times,i took self-rising flour,eggs,cocoa powder,baking powder,sugar,milk,salt,vanilli powder,and gathered them all around.i have made two kind of batters,the original-and the cocoa one.i whisked and whisked untill all ingredients were blended with each other,the batter was smooth and thin,mean while i've buttered the pan(better use the nonstick one)then i've poured in the batter to the pan and made a small puddle of batter,i've cooked it like 2-3 minutes in each side,then flipped it,i've made about 12 pancakes,and then i've served it on the plate with a confectionary sugars and blueberry jam on the top.see,it's so dead-simple to make!!!

I for Insomnia

SATURDAY,FEB,07 2009


My long sleepless night became a nightmare,i just can't stand that.at first it was just a change of my biological time,i didn't slep at night,and slept while other people went tp work.it was fun until i found my self wasn't sleep at all.then i relaized in this three weeks,i had just 2-3 hours of sleep each day and this is what i called nothing but disaster,not to mention after efect:Dark circles under my eye,which obviously caused due to my distrubed sleep.i lost my weight about 2 kilos and amazingly don't feel happy about that.i dont know why i can't sleep??but i know this is on the one hand no good and very unhealthy!!!!
But on other hand,it really helped me out during my working time.i could concentrate and focus on my work bcoz there's not much noise at dawn.but still,it shoudn't be this way,a friend of mine asked me to take sleeping pills,but i don't think it's a good idea.sleeping pills is aren;t solution,my other friend told me to see the doctor or psychiatrist,but i dont think it's necessary either,so here i am,sitting on the bedside and still(counting sheeps kumping ober clouds)looking for the rigt solution to my insomania...
Wish me luck.give me back my sleep,i really need that A.S.A.P!!!!

Children learn what they live

If a child lives with criticism,they will learns to condemn
If a child lives with hostility,they will learns to fight
If a child lives with ridicules,they will learns to be shy
If a child lives with shame,they will learns to feel guilty
If a child lives with tolerance,they will to be patient
If a child lives encouragement,they will learns to be confident
If a child lives with praise,they will learns to appreciate
If a child lives with fairness,they will learns justice
If a child lives with security,he will learns to have faith
If a child lives with approval,they will learns to like himself
IF A CHILD LIVES WITH ACCEPTANCE AND FRIENDSHIP,THEY WILL LEARNS TO FIND LOVE IN THE WORLD.

The key to your heart

You are attracted to those who have split personality-cold as ice on the
outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love,you feel the most a live when your lover is creative and never lets
you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless,cold-blooded
and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is comforting,you crave a relationship where you
always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero,you care about society and morality.you
would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious,you'll treasure marriage and
treat it as secret.
In this moment you think of love as something you thirst for,you'll do
anything for love,but you won't fall for it easly.

Just shut up

Sometimes and somewhere i just dont know what to say and mistakenly saying something that shouldn't be said.
I was about to buya take-away whole roast Oporto's chicken of dinner with friends at home.
Me:''can i have whole roast chicken pls??''
Oporoto's staff:Okay,which sauce would you like?(the staff is a young man)
Me:''Mild please''
Oporto's staff:''err......eat here or take away''
Me:....(really can't say anything for a second thinking if anyone is crazy enough to finish a whole big chicken in one go)...take away please...''

Closure

It's been a long time,however i just want to write a thing that keep bugging my mind.how come when i ask the one up there for a closure or to defend me,he does nothing???truth that will open both of my superiors eyes that i'm not lying or did i pressured the girl.
What i want is the one who is up there help me,defend me or get a closure about this problem,i don't like being deceived like this,he done nothing and soon the girl will gone and left the big problem inside,i really need a closure and someone like a lawyer to defend me,can he become a lawyer and defend me??
The time is clickingand so far there is nothing been done,maybe i'm wrong to turned to god to help me??where is the parh??i'm getting lost of hope in here,dont know he really notice it??

Ecstasy

I have a friend who was recently tried ectasy.i was surprised when he told me,becoz as far i have known,he is a guy who always live to the fullest and clean guy(not a smoker.doesn't like medicines and he always maintain his fresh clean face and style),he is like a kid from next door.

After his first use of the ectasy,he told me that he learned and asked experienced people who are using it regulary before decided to try it.he asked his friend to find a high quality one and look after him when he was on drug.Afterwards,he told me his experience,ecstacy does work but it will need around i hour to reach the''high''

At this point,the user will feel a very high energy coming and feel so high and happy then started to shake the feet to release the coming and coming abundant of energy,this is when he started feel like to dance.

He also told me that when he feel high,he can think,yes..think very clear and feel so active with many ideas and he could remember everything that was happening around,i guess maybe that why many talented people(singer,painter,actorand actress,etc)who feel that there is no more ideas or feel that when they get bollocks,they turned to drugs like ecstasy(when they feel so much despair)

Then after some hours on high,like other drug when it wear out,the users will feel so down,suddenly they will feel so empty and there is as very strong emotion which make them feel in a bigger despair that they never feel before.

This stage is the dangerous stage where usually feeling like not wanted,suicide or so low from anyone will be so great,i guess this is why some users can not overcome this down feeling and choose to eat ectasy again to get the high feeling.

Some users did dead bcoz they didn't want to feel the''down time''they wanted the''high feeling''more while forgetting that they would eventually overdose and kill themselves.

As my friend alreadt been told to think only happiness and ignore the down feeling,he tried hard to keep himself happy during this period,hours after using the ectasy??he said that he feel so sick for around 2-3 days.he got headache and aching everywhere in parts of his body.

eskimo restaurant

It was 11th january 2009,my days while i fell a bit broken heart coz of''rock''after i crying and tell the story to my best friend''calvin''after working all day,he arrived at macau on saturday evening,he find a places to staying offer night for hin self,after he took some rest and shower he call me and we meet at lobby then we going out for more product knowledge then it was time for dinner!!!
Eskimo restaurant offers monthly seasonal changes to the menu and gourmet ingredients from local macau produces.as i reading the menu,we had no idea where we should start.as it is a rare occasion,my colleagues determined to have most ordering different main meals.
Our entree is bella's pruners plate:
The bread was not too dried which i like,i love the rabbit terrine,mango chutney and duck pate.in fact my colleagues scraped these until the other plates were clean while leaving the mustard and cheese.

Consist of yarra valley rabbit terrine with strawberry jam on top,farm house cheese,duck pate(top right),mango chutney salsa(below left),and garlic aioli(top left)with biscotti bread.


Next is calvin's choice of main meal:
He's said that the barramundi is absolute delicious and he liked it cook well done(he's request)
Grilled barramundi,garlic prawn brochette,baby peas,spring onions and confit lemon.
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The baby chicken was tender and soft,it seem just ordinary roast chicken,my friend calvin said that it was not a special dish.
Nest is Calvin's order:
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Boned&roasted baby chicken,truffle foie,pearls onions,creamed celeriac in natural juice,
The veal was tender and everything was the right flavour,the only thing i didn't like is the fried chicken accompanying this dish,it seem not a match,i could easily separated the bacon from the rest of the dish,the mascarpone was melted a bit while we were talking picture each other's dish,i would suggest that the mascarpone should not be salted as it only highlight the salted veal,love the mushroom,seem it was soaked with jus prior cooking and it was juicy.
Mine is:
Noisetters of veal,braised savoy vegetable,salt&pepper mascarpone,mushroom&jus.
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It's classic,but we loved the warm gooey dark chocolate in the centre while it
was cold outside in the macau city,the ice cream was loaded with vanilla bean and it was delicious after your spoon the gooey warm chocolate.as both of us are almost full,we could bot finish the souffle.it was bigger than usual and we loved the intense flavour,next time i will definitely save more place in my tummy for the souffle.
We did have breakfast at eskimo restaurant,i love the breakfast as were provided with fresh fruit like banana with passion fruit instead banana chips at most restaurant do.also,i noticed that the honey was in standing glass container with some pieces of honeycombs.
Both of us loved the dessert:
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Hot chocolate souffle with ice cream vanilla

Maryamah karpov

I just finish Andrea hirata ;ast tetra logy,MARYAMAH KARPOV.well..congratulation to Andrea,i know what most reader said about this book is not true,i've prove it.olie,the genre is not about biographical anymore,because of many hyperbolic thing in it.but this is literature,and everything could happend in it,and literature can be fake as well as real depend on how we interpret it.

I still like your story,and still amaze how can a son can describe his love to his father this great,and how come a man can be in love with someone so deeply and doing many crazy thing to find her again such as being backpacker around Europe and building ship,just only to see her again,just because of a glimpse of her finger.remind me to do meni pedi more often hihihihi.....

One question,why the title is maryamah karpov???Because the story is not about Maryamah karpov,okay...Andrea did not mention her name a bit,and other names and why there are many jokes about someone names in melayu,reminds me of old times school,when we used to call someone from his father names hehehe....

Reading Maryamah,makes me wonder why Andrea is so proud being Melayu,Melayu people is very imaginative and sometimes very good liar....no offense yah...but so as this story.

How genius is lintang,to make accurate calculation in building a ship.and how to explode a sinking ship,i just cant take my breath while reading it!!!if there is a person as genius as lintang,sure i'd like to know one.i like the story about friendship and how we supposed to help each other no matter what...co cuitt...hihihihi...and i like ending of arai and his true love,and i like ending of mahar,eventually found his love,and i like ending of lintang become entrepreneur and rich,so worth with his genius brain,and i like it,because in the end ical has to choose between his greatest love of his father with his greatest love of woman.