Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Say a little prayer


One thing that keeps me a live all these yers was prayers,honestly as a person,i'am fragile inside,i cry easly,break down easily,wrry easily,want to give up easily and complain about this and that easily too,this is the real me.One that makes my parents,especially my mum,worry so much.However there is one powerful thing in this world that can keep a person a live,even the most fragile person.it's PRAYER.i'am thankful so much grateful to those,who never fail to say their prayers for me each time of their lives,my parent and my brother,and so my friend....they all give me strength and they will carry on living,to continue whatever i'm doing no matter hard nd impossible things are,they all make me feel loved.I,too,don't get lonely here or there without my family because of prayers...it's a wy to comunicate with god(allah)he is my everything.I believe,prayer are powerful,there are such things call mirales,yeah i supposed just think life it self miracles,and miracles can happend if we have a strong will to pray and to faith that it will happend.

Painful headache

I did not much this day,simply because i kept getting the same painful headache from the moment i opened my eyes those morning,it's bothered me so much that i start to wonder what cause this pain.
My friend said Anemia or even lack of oxygen in my brain...well those are really something for guess.....The headache makes me don't even want to get up from bed since it is painful...aaarrhhhh how i'm supposed to get up tomorrow to go somewhere early in the morning with this pain??it all begins again tomorrow...the deadly assigggggments and not-fun at all.

Uggggggggghhhhhhhhhh

Tuesday,september 16,2008

I managed to get my self out of bed on time this morning,ready to go for some exercise or do some cleaning in my room,i just ignored the headache so that i don't get bothered by it.reach at the park as the earliest attendant and was really looking forward to see the new person...hehehhe...one,two,there familiar faes come along at the park to do some exercise too,but much of them are do jogging and do some other exercise.while i do jogging was about to start,then a completely unfamiliar fe showed up,it was a''GUY''!!!...the uncle who walk beside to me instanly laughing after seeing my face expresion.whatttttttt...??another guy!!out of disbelief,it is true he is the one,i thought was a girl...yeah thanks to god..i put my hope high that the person would be a girl eeeeemmmm....
so yeah..now it's even toughter for me,a girl competing with that guy just great...and perfect.
I'm really tired today,extremly tired.even when i met my friend in a supermrket,she said i look exhausted,yes...i'am.my mind was blank,walking like a robot around city centre.luckily i managed to get part of my grocery shopping done.i go around the city super market to get some cheap veggies,apple,brown pear,yogurt and milk uuugghhhhh very heavy though,my hands felt like falling apart.And today's weather is so hooooooottttttttt and on top of that the sun really shining down on my head strongly.right just perfect combination for me.

Monday, September 15, 2008

I really fell upset

These days i so often call my parent on the phone and on home phone,but they not answer my call till 10 times,i'm in big tension and so worry with them all''my mum,my dad,and my bro''what's going on??but i'm not giving up and do keep on trying to call them,coz since two month ago i didn't call my parent like usually,coz i don't know how to explain to them specially my parent(i'm sorry mum,and dad,i really miss u all,but what can i do???)
Anyway i'm so happy when finally they answer my call(thanks god,they are still fine)i'm talking so much with my parent and so i ask them why did they didn't answer my call just now?my dad said they leave the phone at home and they where in my uncle house coz my elder cousin get some accident.me and my dad talking here and there and also do some joking hehehhe...it's really make me happy today,but that happy felling of mine are not stay longer,it stop since my dad told me about ramadan there and also about eid-.i know they are preparing for eid this time.but i try to whisper my self''it's ok hani..next time u can have time to celebrate with them,inshaalah''.
And so i can cheer up again after all,then sudelly my dad asking me''daughter...u had promise with us b4 eid-u will earn money for the eid-day?because u said to me that don't took any amount from my own acount for the eid,so i didn't took it to buy everything''Ohh...god,i forgot with my promise(well anyway i'm not forget with promise i had said to my parent)but for now i didn't have any money....yeah...i ready took all of my ammount for my parent to go in''mecca''so nothing leave now,only leeft $10.000 hk dlr but i could took that money,usually i need to send money for eid- since first of sept,but i didn't send it coz someone(.....???)aks me to send amount for him to buy some medicine for him self,i really confused that time wich one i must do transfer the money?my parent or him?coz both of them are meaningful in my life,and i dont know what should i do?
Finally i had to choose one of them,and so i did choose him coz he need more that money but beside that i'm crying alot coz i ignored my own parent and ask them to wait without say anything.and now the eid- is coming soon where i can get the money from and send to them like i had fullfill my promise to them?i really confused this time,event they have money in their account but i dont want they use the own money for this.and what should i doooooooooooooooo?????i can't say anything to them in this time and i don't know what to do?if i send first of next month it's too late for this,but if i don't send what will they think about me?for all my family(mum,dad,bro)from bottom of my heart i really sy sorry for this,coz i can't fulfill my own promise this time,i really so sorry for all.(i'm really fell upset dady...i wish u don't fell how upset was my felling this time and wish u don't fell that i'm crying alot since i call u today,pls don't think negative about me....i will fulfill all my promise.i do love you all...)