Friday, March 20, 2009

To be Invisible

20,march,2009

Because i based my self esteem on what others thought of me,unknowingly i gave thempower to define my value,i wanted-needed-everyone to like me,so i became a people pleaser,trying to blend in,i didn't like my self but i desperately wanted to believe that someone did.
From the time started i wanted to be invisible,i was quiet and very private to avoid being hurt,mocked,or rejected.i rarely revealed my feelings or opinion.
I find my self believing in my daydreams so strongly that i get hurt and disappointed when reality hits me,my daydreams are very unrealistic,i know that but it helps me escape.

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